The slightly eccentric mind?

The slightly eccentric mind wonders aimlessly 

without regard for anything in particular. 

Nothing in particular being both a good and bad thing. 

One second happy fuzzy warm thoughts 

fill its mind

soon to be replaced 

by much different stressful thoughts

to be replaced again 

by some more calming 

soothing thoughts

and so on. 

Sometimes it feels 

it solved the worlds problems 

only to be interrupted, 

lost by some other stupid mundane thought! 

Thoughts rush non stop 

like a wave of reality 

slapped upon a shocked delicate face. 

This goes on and on 

all day long, 

every waking hour! 

Exhausting!

Why?

Why does so much go one in there? 

Why can't it focus? 

Why can't it be still? 

Why?

Why?

Why? 

What? 

The end of the best summer ever!

Tonight I came to the sad realization that what was probably the best summer of my life was coming to an end.  I took the dogs out and it was freezing and I could smell the smoke from the neighbors chimney.  It just made me realize that the nights are getting longer, the days are shorter, and soon the snow will fly.  This summer was really the best ever and I think it will be the beginning of many more great summers to come.  I love that my kids are getting older and that I can do more fun things with them.  My wife doesn't get the same amount of vacation that I get so when I took my two full weeks in a row off this summer I got to spend it all with the kids while my poor wife worked.  We had many adventures!  We swam pretty much every day, we golfed, we biked, we played at the park, we hiked Currie's Mountain, etc, etc, etc.  So much fun with them and I'll tell you what, I savored every minute of it!  They are getting older and I know we won't be able to do this much with them forever.  They'll get older, do other things, get busy, not want to hang out with old dad anymore.  Before I know it they'll be all grown up!  Wow...

my first post

I created this blog in a continuing effort to improve myself.  I want to become a better person but I need an outlet, and this my friends is it.  I have always loved to write and for me it is a way to express myself.  I have issues and over the years I have kept them in check but I feel that i am lacking something?  This will be a constant work in progress.  Right now as I write this I'm not sure how, or even if, it will evolve from this one lonely post.  Speaking of lonely, even though I am constantly surrounded by people, I feel as though I am a very lonely person.  It sounds weird I know but like I said, I have issues.  And what's weirder is that I'm not even sure if my self perceived loneliness is a bad thing or a happy thing?  Anyway I do know one thing, no body gets me?  Or at least I think no one gets me?